Marriage - Journal by Pillow #1
Long time ago, a bachelor wished to have a so-called happy marriage and live with the loved one till end of his life. Since nobody realized his good, no one was willing to live with him. Because he is the one who appreciated most and love most himself, he ended up to marry himself. Since then no one can ever enter his emotion world because it would be accused as illegal affairs.
Family House - Journal by Pillow #2
Family House - Journal by Pillow #2Long time ago, there was a huge fireball in the Universe. Inside the fireball, tinder crashed with each other and formed different creatures.
However, no creatures can survive inside the fireball.
They had to escape immediately upon the moment being created.
Otherwise they would be destroyed by the flame in the next moment.
To be Understood - Journal by Pillow #3
To be Understood - Journal by Pillow #3A melancholia patient who was suspected as a poet abducted a 254 bus running on Fuho bridge. Other than bus driver and the outlaw's spouse, all passenger remained unprotested to listen. the outlaw promised hurting no one, as long as everyone quietly listening to the mainifest of love he wrote. A student dropout from school sit on priority seat then cried out. Few guys followed this outlaw get off the bus and disappeared in the traffic of morning hours.
The Love Boat - Journal by Pillow #4
The Love Boat - Journal by Pillow #4In the summer night of 33C, girl next door leaves her bedroom, takes off her clothes, facing the breeze, and catches up seeds of dandelion. She put those seeds underneath the pillow of clouds.
Durning the dawn moment, a river not knowing where to go passes through an empty square and brings out all the stars. Only fishes jumps on the concrete ground and flashes from their scales. Pala, pala, they slowly move toward the roads near by.
Retreat - Journal by Pillow #5
Retreat - Journal by Pillow #5Train tracks remain parallel. The cooper buckles by cloth edge hang between two legs. You want to f*ck me?
No, no, no. You misunderstood. I just want to be took care. Please give up your resistance and your stick. On my belly, snake crowds wriggled.
The monk laughed and said, I am not the person who don't bless you gusy, but the Buddha.
Retreat does not necessarily refer as to sit silently without a word; sometimes blabber can reach the truth.
Coitus - Journal by Pillow #6
Coitus - Journal by Pillow #6The repeated life is so horrifying. Soul is in prison by summer time without relief.
Anyone care about kids?
Those who look ferocious are in fact very weak. The tomb-builder's penis holds on. Is that because he thinks of the dead lying in the tomb?
Do not scare. Put on black fish-net stockings. Without your invitation first, no one can ever hurt you. I just don't want to have sex with someone who has no facial express at all. It makes me feel I screw up.
Rain drop always find its landing point.
Lies always makes people angry.
The Pacifier - Journal by Pillow #7The Pacifier cannot replace mother's nipples. The insects' singing cannot be listed as noise control.
Those who painfully sow can harvest happily. I ride motorcycle to feel the breeze. I cannot stand a tomorrow without you. The Jesus came to our kitchen. My mom yielded out: do not enter my holy land.
Man is woman's burden. Feast is better than the night view. Mole on the thigh and hair on the leg... Teacher begins to scold: be serious with your homework!
The Holy Mother - Journal by Pillow #8
The Holy Mother - Journal by Pillow #8The goddess of Darkness
The Mother of Evil
Descending from heaven and falling into underground.
No physical body, no personal desire.
She has countless divine attention and unrestrained violence, as well as strong will.
She abides by all pains and sufferings,
While creates all the pain and sufferings.
The Forbidden Fruits - Journal by Pillow #9Inhale, then exhale, exhale.
A horrifying summer, I ran by the shore and couldn't breathe. Flying birds drop and boats sank. An unknown black hole inside the ocean.
My chest was burn with anxious flame and the hot sand beach burn my feet.
Flowers came from ocean surface and I heard someone singing.
Cut it out ! Cut it off! Play the drum. Heat my belly. I am pregnant. No one would ask you for abortion. You might stay with my family. I am bleeding now, just run! They were chasing after you. Don't you wear anything? Don't cry and don't fetch the fruits unless you already prepare for punishment.
(The punishment won't be temporary.)
Helpless - Journal #10
Helpless - Journal #10Inside the car, all passenger fall asleep so well.
Only the peoplemonger
Looks viciously at the pregnant woman.
Damage Creator - Journal by Pillow #11Run fast!
Don't try to fix a disaster with another disaster,
Don't think that sex can fetch true love.
Why do you want to be a victim?
Unwilling to change or to leave
From such bad-condition relationship
In such perennial torturing with each other,
Are you a victim as well as a benefiter?
The Chateau - Journal by Pillow #12Like the fair tale of sleeping beauty,
you are always so defensive towards others,
just like an old chateau covered with briar.
All of your friends can only imagine with surprise
the happiness in a century.
The Manupulator - Journal by Pillow #13
The Manupulator - Journal by Pillow #13Ascetic is by no means to lose one's own desire
Ascetic is by no means to become boring
Ascetic is to purify one's body and mind, so the body and mind can be keener toward desire, as well as to more delicately recognize desires, and fully satisfy with desire.
Affectation - Journal by Pillow #14
Affectation - Journal by Pillow #14We are very diligent.
In every year, we play different new tricks.
We may not be familiar with that trick,
we are all mincingly serious about it.
The Thief - Journal by Pillow #15
The Thief - Journal by Pillow #15Pregnancy is not a particular bad thing. Unless you pass by the police station, you don't need to report it. Those Philippine helpers and Thailand laborers occupy the triangle-shape park and roads around the church. Fingers with callus play with guitar. A bank security rubbed the bank and he said he didn't want to course. The excited passerby fights to be interviewed by TV. It is almost time to finish plucking the chicken feathers. If you don't kiss your lover's mouth upon waking up, don't put your clothes in rush for leaving. I twill be like a thief kept over night.
The Heavenly Shit Angel - Journal by Pillow #16
The Heavenly Shit Angel - Journal by Pillow #16Why do I sign up for growth group class?
Because I am lonely. It is such nonsense talking!
The reason why I sign up for growth group class is because of the one I love and equally hate.
My inner child, my old ancestor,
Always hide from me and won't see me.
If I saw him, I would kill him! No, it won't be like that.
I would hold him tightly with my tears running and swear never let him go again.
The reason why I sign up for class is because I need to be pushed, into bottomless abyss. I would transfigure into the shit angel of love and the moment fly with my wings.
Sauna - Journal by Pillow #17
Sauna - Journal by Pillow #17Men inside the room all sleep so well that they loosen their legs
It is like collective nudity with certain intention but without sensual desire
Under the twilight,
I search for body that arise my desire
I look for anonymous lover
We have body contact without soul exchange
Desire can never by satisfied, nor stopped
Why not go home?
In the utility room, the machine is making noise.
The Jerk - JOurnal by Pillow #18
The Jerk - JOurnal by Pillow #18I provably cannot have such tenderness again?
I will. Definitely I will. It is just very difficult to understand what is something gone forever and something we can have it again. I am not a bad guy. I am not cold heart.
I am not a jerk.
Can we just simply have sex?
I have to take a bath to comfort myself.
Don't think yourself as a social dreg just because a speeding photography
The rule of friendship is that, you should leave after kiss, no matter how late the night is.
Interdependence - Journal by Pillow #19
Interdependence - Journal by Pillow #19Depression. A depressed person is so hateful. He looks so miserable. What does he want? It is so disgusting. A depressed person is an irresponsible one. He has himself lost action and pushes all works to others. He thinks depression can get rid of sense of guilty. Depression is a sin, lazy, like a dog begging for something.
Depression is like funeral affair. It is to hold up something to lose without any solution.
A depressed person is impotent. The depressed person needs to be caressed, such deeply caress that depress becomes great sensual foreplay. In fact depression is a bad child stealing other's sympathy.
Depression should not come to this empty room. When depression comes, I can only lay down for sleep. (Depression is my secret lover)
Emptiness - Journal by Pillow #20
Emptiness - Journal by Pillow #20Men and women, wondering till midnight
They challenge the emptiness of love with their bodies
In large cities and small towns
What you see has been all swallowed.
You cannot take everything with yourself
You have to be honest with your truth, and someone's penis.
It is unhealthy to keep everything to yourself
It is better to die at one bite of swallow and the moment becomes eternal.
When the hotel is tore down, the trust is gone.
Jubilation - Journal by Pillow #21
The linguistic violence always contains implied affection
The tender caress always drive people crazy
Remember to take medicine after meal
Remember to greet with neighbor when taking a walk
Don't get depressed with impotence
Bess fly over when flowers tear down
Semen comes out when lover groans
